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I want to be seen, but not too much

  • Writer: Carrie Xue
    Carrie Xue
  • 4 days ago
  • 1 min read

It’s strange being a teenager in the age of the internet. I want someone to understand me, to really get me, but I also panic at the thought of being perceived too deeply. I post pictures and then immediately delete them. I draft captions and never press share. I crave connection but fear exposure.


It feels like everyone is curating a museum version of themselves. Polished, filtered, labeled neatly with clever captions. And then there’s me: a mess of real emotions and awkward angles.


I wish I could stop measuring myself by likes or views or replies. I wish being myself didn’t feel like I was risking something.

 
 
 

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